2000 and Thin: 147-148: The Sound of Unsettling

Here in my room and procrastinating before I set off for Polo to play Tennis. I decided to write a blog covering what I did and ate last Sunday and Monday. My head is spinning... I guess I'm also getting overwhelmed by everything that's been happening. I'm doing a lot of things but for some reason, I feel like I'm not doing anything at all. Jack of all trades, master of none. I'm about to leave for the States in two days... I feel like I have so much stuff yet to do here... but what exactly? Go on meetings? I feel that I have to write... but i haven't. And now, the one thing I have been able to write regularly, my blog, I don't even get to update it everyday anymore.

Maybe what I need is a vacation and time to clear my head, especially with everything that's happening in my life. For one, this is what it feels like to be in control of your time, to be boundless... you have to make an itinerary out of it... and that's weird coz now, I don't work around the system. I make the system work for me. I'm in charge. Sometimes, I wanna be taken charge of. I'm sure it takes time getting used to this but I have to admit, it was simpler to have a corporate structure to add a routine and organization to your life. You go to work at this time, you leave work at this time, and the few remaining time that you have, you make the most out of it.

Now, you have all the time in the world... and that's so... scary. Unless you have a clear picture of what you wanna do in your head, I could be coasting along from day to day, like an aimless soul, without a care in the world... But it makes me wonder, am I publicized free spirit but in reality, a soul that wants to be caged? Ugh... emo thoughts in bad Manila weather... I should really get my ass outta bed and just work out... seriously.

WHAT I ATE TODAY:

DAY 147
Breakfast:
none

Lunch:
1 Chori Burger
Sisig
Sizzling Bangus
Garlic Rice