I had a pretty good run at the workshop last Monday. I ended up singing "Sailing" from the musical A New Brain - one of my favorite musicals from one of my favorite composers - William Finn. My song was okay. It was safe. But at least I got through it. I dunno man, my nerves were getting the best of me that day. I practiced it over and over again here at work and at home, while in the shower and in the toilet. But my nerves always seem to get the best of me.
I have to find a way to channel my nerves and use it towards my advantage. I'm too conscious kasi eh. And I overthink everything to the point na mapapagod na utak ko pero wala pa rin namang nangyayari. I also have a tendency to preempt myself or make things big in my head when there's really nothing there to begin with.
More than anything, it's official. I've filed my resignation with SM and my last day will be on May 15. I've learned a lot from this company and I believe I've grown as both a professional and an individual. But it's time I pursued my other passions like writing and theater - but definitely the non-performing side. I need to perform to feed my soul when it's cache has been emptied but I realized that my strength is really behind-the-scenes. I like enabling people like I mentioned in a previous blog entry. And that's what I wanted to set off to do.
WHAT I ATE TODAY:
1 Polo Cheese Burger w/ Fries
1 Grape Slushie
SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:
1 lap of jogging around the polo field
2 hours of tennis (doubles)
- 2000 and Thin