DAY 21: IT'S ALL RELATIVE

You know how they say that when a butterfly doesn't flap its wings at a certain point in time, it can trigger a series of events that may alter reality as we know it. It's called the butterfly effect. They seem to use this motif a lot in comic books.

Well, my dilemma of late is more of a cause and effect... because when I sleep late, I wake up late, and I'm not able to have an early breakfast which I can supposedly burn with exercise before heading to work. I also lose a huge chunk of my day by waking up late... and momentum is severely lost.

Therefore, all my schedules are adjusted backwards, including my food intake... which leads me to the gastronomic disaster that is today... But it started well though. I had a morning jog in the Polo Field and I realized that since I started 2000 and Thin, I haven't really jogged in Polo... I've been doing treadmill, treadmill, and more treadmill - also 'coz I've been really busy with work and stuff.

*Here's the calming and very peaceful view of the field. On a Saturday afternoon, it's perfect to go for a jog under the heat of the sun. You get a tan, and you also get to ruminate on things without having to worry about anything else or be distracted by things you have to do at that moment.

Success Story: i jogged for two straight laps and each lap is measured as 1 kilometer... So I was running for 2 kilometers. 1 kilometer to go and I can officially join the 3k run...

*Eto na... sabog kung sabog and ready to pass out. Haha!

WHAT I ATE TODAY:
Breakfast:
(none)

Lunch:
(none)

Merienda:
1 Bottle of Soymilk
1 Yogurt with Berries, Strawberries, and Kiwi

Dinner:
1 Chicken Burger w/ Bun
1 Beef Burger w/ Bun
1 Bowl of French Onion Soup

*Wow, this was so delicious. I could have had another serving actually

- French Fries
- Crispy Fried Chicken Skin

*Crispy Chicken Skin. Gahd, I finished all of this. Talk about babuyan. I even had dessert, Tita Betchay's buko sherbet... Yummmmmm!

*great, just great. I love it everytime Manay Ajja cooks though... She's an excellent cook! And I get really excited to taste and see what she does. I love those culinary techniques that she uses... balsamic reduction, amuse-bouche, and all these fancy techniques that they can't seem to do here in the house - coz all we do every friggin' day is pinirito, sinigang, and nilagas.

*Afterwards, I headed to Valle to crash this party that Christel invited me too. Haha. It was so random. She and I, later joined by Gege, felt so displaced. But the randomest things seem to be the most fun. Hey, free food and free drinks right? Thankfully I didn't eat anymore...

*Wanting to continue our random streak, we headed to Pivo where the three of us had some beer. Bourg and I had our favorite Titje and Gege tried this new beer... presenting...

*Chimay! Haha... long story! Nice to see Gege out and about after so long! Trivia: Titje beer pala is actually wheat beer which is why it tastes so good.

*We were feeling really random so we played this little game of scrolling down our phones to see whose peace we can disrupt and invite over. Several funny and interesting names came up. How about some Tito Boy Abunda? Haha. Wouldn't it be so random if he came at like 230am? Anyway, rule to the people who were texted was: Kung nagpapapilit, 'wag na! Jolo was game and random enough to come out with his girlfriend Cara and we hung out until Pivo kicked us out through closing time! Boo Jetty. Boo!

*BFF w/ Jolo and Cara.

*We took our random streak to Blue Frog when Nikki Fig arrived since her blockmate owns the place, and finally to Reserved since Dax was raving about it the other day. The crowd is pretty good. Not a lot of familiar faces though 'coz it's the North crowd... just like the South has its own crowd... But it was pretty nice. I can see myself hanging out there. It's a good concept. Sushi Bar and inuman place. Kinda like distillery but with sushi.

Next random night will be there... for sure! I love randomness!

ALCOHOL
-1 Bottle of Titje Beer

SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:

*View from the Top

*Cousins w/ Max and Tita Joce watching Glee on Manay Ajja's laptop. I love Glee! I love how theater people have been put into the spotlight :) Finally a show that celebrates their talent.

*The gorgeous Princess Auntie Bechay


NAUGHTIES:

*BFF AND BOURG EATING CHICKEN!

EXERCISE
- 3 Laps around the Polo Field (2 Laps running + 1 Lap brisk walking)

MORNING WEIGHT
- 208 pounds

EVENING WEIGHT
- 212 pounds
*Oh god, it's the dinner isn't it? And metabolism slowed down 'coz I didn't have breakfast. Shoot shoot.

- 2000 and Getting Fat

Day 20: 2000 and Fat!

Typing this entry on the way home. Just dropped Rev off after a night in Encore with Cris. She and I wanted to check out that DJ who originated the “Shot, shot, shot” song and we didn't even get to hear the song play. We kinda stepped out for a bit to check out Cuisine and according to Rev, that was about the time that it played. Sayang!

On a more random note, we drifted off to what I can only describe, to be politically correct, as the randomest area in the club where a lot of hilarious and random moments happened. First some guy who mistakenly shakes my hand. Then another guy who shoos me away, wanting me to move. And the most random of all, some guy who looked at me, then Cris, then gave the most confused look of disapproval. Hello? Is he blind? What a douche!

But it was all good. Bumped into a lot of familiar faces. And it was nice bonding with Cris in the absence of everybody else. I broke my 2000 and Thin though tonight which explains my bloatedness as I type. And my probable bloatedness tomorrow - which is why I SUPER SUPER have to treadmill. Haha! (Nicole! Harvs! I just remembered... SUPER thanks talaga!)

I dunno… when you feel random, you just decide to throw it all out the window – though still in comparative moderation. It’s one of those things that you just acquire as you gain wisdom and foresight into the future.

I ate… but I didn’t eat as much. Oh boy, I wonder what my weight will be when I get home... I most definitely have to treadmill tomorrow, or jog in the Polo Field to shed off all my excess weight - hoping that the horse shit on the tracks have been cleared out. 

Saw Ms. Lora today at the office, and she said that she reads my blog, and she noticed that my weight see-saws a lot. She’s right. It does see-saw… coz I gain momentum, and then I have these bouts of weakness, and I succumb… but not too much that I totally make baboy. No naman… I just have a better sense of self and limit now, but discipline waivers when temptation is there…

As we were about to leave, I saw Rev (who had a lil too much to drink) and he invited to eat. I decided to stay with him and we chatted over pork belly and clam chowder. 2000 and Thin! What the bleep happened? 

Before that, I was at David and Alfie's and had a nice time catching up with all my lovely, beautiful, too gorgeous for words friends. I felt perfectly happy and normal when I was with them... but upon getting to Encore and seeing a lot of younglings all dolled up and ready to paint the town red... I realized... crap, my friends and I are getting old. We're becoming... yuppies. Ick! young professionals indeed

Anyway, today I realized something worth sharing... the heart may always be the same. But the mind  changes and evolves over time. The heart is constant. It can be scarred, it can love or be loved, it can feel pain... but it's resilient. But the mind gets sharper and wiser.

When you’re young, you have the tendency not to know what you really want, or how you feel for that matter. And your mind is not necessarily at the level of potency or maturity to guide your heart accordingly. As you get older, you experience the same emotions – love, hate, anger, resentment, infatuation, joy, sadness… – but the wisdom that you have accrued through age and experience is able to temper them and keep these emotions at bay.

You can find yourself feeling strongly about something and then you realize… you know what… wait a minute. You take a step back... maybe it’s not the right time… not now…and maybe perhaps, life is not at wit's end. It happens. It goes on. And in the midst of hopeless ends, it becomes a hopeful beginning... That said... happy birthday to my O-Boys for life... David and Alfers. Here's to you guys! To beginnings! Love you both!

WHAT I ATE TODAY:

Breakfast:

(none)

Lunch:

- 1 pc. Pepperoni Crunch Pizza

- Chicken and Corn Soup

- 2 pcs. Mojo

- 1 pc. Fried Chicken

- 2 glasses of water

*heavy lunch much?

*Pepperoni Crunch from Shakeys... yum!

*Mojos! I had 2 pcs.

DINNER (Part 1)

- 1 pc. Food for the Gods

- 1 small serving of spaghetti

- 4 pcs. melba toast with the yummy dip

- 4 pcs. inihaw na liempo

- 4 pcs. lechon kawali

- 1/4 lumpiang ubod

*wow... ang dami lang...

DINNER (Part 2)

- 4 pcs. dragon roll from Cuisine

*Dragon Roll... Yummm....

DINNER (Part 3)

- 1 Cup of Clam Chowder

- 1 pc. of crispy pork belly... no!!!! I succumbed

*Crap... I'm dozing off... hurry

ALCOHOL

- 2 Cups of Pomelo w/ Orange The Bar

- 1 Shot of The Bar (the birthday shot)

- 3 glasses of Asti

- 1 San Mig Light

*not good...

NAUGHTIES:

*My wonderful work family, comprised of: Michelle, Rina, Pearl and Ninoy on the right...

*Ach... I almost dozed off...

*Sunsilk eating inihaw na baboy and Alfie's spaghetti that takes like Pancake House ... Yumm!!

*T.Gar coming at' ya

*Yun oh, pork belly!

SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:

1 Week old little puppy dawg.. M-Dawg's protege.... Katsu... short for Katsudon! Awww.... so cute!

D-reez and the real M-Dawg who invented a commendable variant to shit shit. haha

*HERE'S THE LIEMPO....

*And the real liempo if I keep eating like this again... (me at Mongolian three weeks and fifteen pounds ago...

MORNING WEIGHT:

206.5 pounds

*after 30 minutes treadmill... woah!

EVENING WEIGHT:

210.5 pounds

*what the fuck!

- 2000 and Thin (or FAT!)

DAY 19: RETAIL THERAPY

Today was one of the most stressful days at work. I was half infuriated, half disappointed with the presentation that our team just did. It's like the whole thing went south and all plans didn't fall into place - - - - after all that planning. What a Train Wreck! Expectations weren't met. And I was just getting really frustrated with everything. I think it showed in my face. If you wear your heart on your sleeves, it's not really that easy to mask your emotions. 

I mean, after all that planning and preparation, things didn't work out. I hate disappointment. I hate being disappointed. And I hate not getting what I want or expect. I'm a brat that way but it's part of life I guess. It's one of those humbling experiences when you realize that the world ain't your oyster, the world doesn't revolve around you, and there are some things you just really have to work hard for - just like everybody else. Believe me, I'm working hard. It's exag!

Anyway, in the middle of my frustration, I headed to Mall of Asia to do some retail therapy. Went to Zara, Gap, and Topman. Didn't really buy anything from Zara 'coz everything seemed so dressy, metro-wy, and I wasn't really in a celebratory mood or power trip to shop along those lines. Topman had nothing but small sizes that don't fit me. So I headed to Gap where I got some jogging shorts and a denim top. Understated, homey, comfortable, and comforting in true Gap Fashion. My plan originally was to go shopping at 200 pounds - a little more than 8 pounds from now - but I just needed to buy something to cope with my stress. 

Funny thing how our taste evolves over the years. I used to be a Gap and American Eagle kid... Then at some point, I found them boring since they were too basic and understated. I was going for loud then, KSP, and flash bang she-bam... so I gravitated towards H&M, Zara, and Structure (which of course is know Express Men). But as I'm getting older, it's like I just wanna look low-profile and un-KSP... maybe an accent here and there, but nothing outlandish in a crazy sort of way... that's just annoying

WHAT I ATE TODAY:

Breakfast:

- 1 cup of brown rice

- 10 pcs. Henlin Siomai (w/ soy sauce and chili)

*I ate a lot for Breakfast. But it's ayt... it's breakfast! King kung king!

Lunch:

- 1 Medium Taro Ice from Quickly (since it was brought up in Chris's car last night... I took a mental picture and just had to satisfy my craving...)

*Shet nakakamiss 'tong Quickly. Hmm... red na pala paper bag ng Gap?

- 1 Slice of Miss Marie's pizza from Italliannis (I wasn't supposed to eat anything more than Taro Ice.. but I just couldn't resist when I was venting my problems to her... Oh man, I'm really gonna miss my area. I don't think it's gonna be the same when I move. I miss my work family...)

*Alam mo... sa sobrang stress... I actually could have had more of this. Thank God Ms. Marie only had once slice left from her takeout... Thank God!

Dinner:

(none)

NAUGHTIES:

*Amador... being annoying with his Sebastian's Ice Cream... annoying!

* Hmm... maybe not so annoying. JLO had the lowfat chocolate ice cream as I looked on, determined not to eat ice cream as part of 2000 and Thin!

SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:

*I swear to God. Mom is too weird. Early in the morning, preparing for my earlier than early meeting, she comes in my room in a girl scout's outfit. I was like... ummm... what the hell? Apparently, she has event in Tarlac with Tita Kimmy! Haha. Mom is too weird but too cute in this picture. Won't see her again 'til Sunday... story of my life pre-elections... 

*So early in the morning... at least Yeng managed a smile... I was sleepwalking...

*Amador being annoying again with this newspaper ad of Shakeys. Shet, it looks so good...

MORNING WEIGHT:

210 pounds

EVENING WEIGHT:

208.5 pounds

- 2000 and Thin

DAY 18: Shooting Stars

So I've been getting writer's block as the days go by, not to mention, super puyat as I always write this blog an hour before I sleep. And yes, writing a daily weight loss blog has become mentally and physically taxing, not to mention incredibly demanding... but as I keep reminding myself, the rewards will be worth it in the end. So just keep writing.

Keep at it. Don't censor. Keep it real. Write from your heart because deep down, you know what you want naman eh. What you want is to lose weight - - - so lose it. You've never wanted anything so bad in your life of late as 2000 and Thin! So get to work!

Anyway, speaking of work, I realized... I've been starting my blog for the past few days ranting about work. It's become like my habitual catharsis upon contact until my thoughts hit their current weight loss trajectory... Since work will forever be work, I will just focus my energy on other things...

Today was bittersweet... my best friend Charlie finally left for Spain. She boarded the plane at 820pm... and I got to speak with her twice before she left. Wow, I realized, I'm really going to miss that girl. But at the same time, I'm really thrilled that she gets to live out her dream. 10 Months is a long time but just like me writing this weight loss blog, the rewards for her will be worth it in the end.

Can't believe she's flying to Spain without a laptop or a camera though. I asked her how she was going to study and all. How will she manage to survive? she said, "Kare, pen and paper." Charlie has always been one of those traditionalists who tries to stay away from trappings of technology and do it the old school way, at least from the technology of want rather than the technology of need.

It's nice to have preservationists in your life like that... sometimes, we get so distracted by technology that we forget about the many beautiful things that make our world so unique and beautiful, and the very foundations that keep the human spirit essentially afloat and alive in this age of modernity. Okay... this entry is getting too deep. na-no-nosebleed na ako. and........... scene! Love you Charlie! Bon Voyage!

*Shot shot shot...

WHAT I ATE TODAY:
Breakfast: 
(none)

Lunch:
- 1 cup of brown rice
- Salmon w/ Tomato Ketchup
*Ya super weird combination but oddly enough... it worked. And it was good.

Dinner:
- 2 pcs. chicken pandan
- 2 small servings of phad thai
- 1 cup of Thom Yooong Soup with 1 pc. shrimp
- 2 pcs. fried eggplant (from Nicole's beef salad...)
- 1 pc. of calamares

*Mara wanted to hit Saguijo tonight to check out some bands so before that, we rounded the troops for a quality dinner at People's Palace.. crap, someone went to town with dinner. You're right Rev. When you have spicy from the get-go, you tend to eat more. Man, I shoulda listened... or unhinged myself from the table after eating 2 pcs. pandan chicken... Not good!

And since it was so close between the time I left work and the dinner... I couldn't squeeze in any form of exercise anymore. Crap. Oh there I just crapped... I'm actually popping in the toilet

Anyway, today I got my very first mixed CD - workout CD that is for 2000 and Thin. Thanks Mara! And for the lil' camera too...

*I had 2 pcs. of this chicken pandan - - - so yummy.

*The soup was spicy and delicious.

*This was the killer. I had 2 servings of phad thai, thought it wasn't that good. Actually if you think about it, it's not that much... but it's a lil' bit out there compared to what I've been eating for these past few weeks for dinner. Hello soup and salads?

*2 pieces of fried eggplant. This was actually pretty good. I wish they knew how to cook this in the house. But all Nanay Josephine knows how to cook is the same ol' daing na bangus, inihaw na bangus, piniritong bangus, sinigang na bangus... bangus, bangus, bangus. Pwede ba? Anyway, I gave her a bunch of recipes today I tore from Men's Health magazine... Hope she can whip some nice stuff up.

SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:
*So I had a good dinner today with the gang at People's Palace in Greenbelt - two days in the making. The food there is always good but seriously, we have to be on the lookout for new places to eat. I don't wanna become one of those creatures of habit who always dines in the same place. But can you blame me if the food here is just too good? And it's fragrant too. I love fragrant food. 
Oh and Indian!

*Sealed with a kiss. Guess who's lipstick?

The Killers may have cancelled their Asian tour for reasons unknown, but one killer reason I do know that deterred me from 2000 and Thin is that I had two beers tonight. and it sucks... not to mention my Purple Lacoste Cap got a whole on it. It fell into the floor while we were at People's and I flicked my cigarette stick on it... and it started to burn a hole through the cap. Oh man... that was my favorite cap pa naman. I was seriously bummed. I don't know why I brought down that cap to begin with. So stupid. And as we kept blowing and blowing on it... our breaths merely fanned the flame... and the hole kept getting bigger. Fuck! So Stupid... Flashback to New York when i was with Macky and Gege in this bar... And my beanie totally caught on fire too... 'coz I left it near the candle. Stoops!

*Demure?

*Si Ser H

Mara and Cristine

*I think the flash was too bright. This is my face when I'm about to take a crap. Oh god the double chin.

*Sibling shot... yes they all look like they're siblings

*Afterwards, Cristina dragged me and Rev to Distillery for Paul's birthday thing. Guess who we bumped into? Shot shot shot... shot shot shot....

*Gucci pouts. haha

*Face off

NAUGHTY:

*Flashback to work: Look at Amador with his Mc Donalds combo meal. Annoying!

PIOUS:

*Good job on the ampalaya Ms. Marie. I love how your meal is explicitly P40... haha! Yey! Healthy eating for

2000 and Thin!

*TOFF! *TOFF! Louder... *Toff. It operates when there's a loud base and seems to have taken a liking towards me :)

EXERCISE:

(none) - Ouch! 

MORNING WEIGHT: 

209.5 pounds

EVENING WEIGHT:

211 pounds

*damn beers and no workout. Gahhhd!

- 2000 and Thin