She figured... my hormones are acting up because I've been on a diet. Tumpak. And mom is always right. Eh extremes naman kasi akong tao eh... My true love used to be food and it got me through the day. I was happy and jolly, eating away through take-out and living the prime of life, and it inspired me to keep on going through every daunting task or adversity. I lived to eat, and not ate to live. Now, food is like a tool for survival and I have lost the will and the passion for it. I let myself go on this diet spree and I guess it's taking a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally. I'm forever drained, and downtrodden, and seemingly problematic when everything is going right. Hay nako. But yes, I'm still capable of joy. But it almost instantly fades with sadness.
I also haven't exercised since Sunday so I haven't had an endorphin boost to fuel my happiness. It's 7:40am and I will make it a point to squeeze in around 30 minutes of treadmill after this so I can feel better about myself as I go on to another work day. Hopefully, it'll up my spirit.
WHAT I ATE TODAY:
1 Bottled Water
2 Bites of Caesar Salad (until I felt like puking)
3 pcs. calamares
1 Coke Zero
1 Lettuce w/ Minced Chicken
SIGHTS AND SOUNDS:
*why the serious face Michelle?
*Oh my mentor and life coach HB, not looking so happy here. Why the forced smile? hehe. No actually he was feeling under the weather so the three of us ended up calling it a night early. I then headed to High Street since I wasn't needed for the meeting I was supposed to attend... to meet up with friends, and Kakki who I haven't seen in ages. Glad to see her up on her toes despite everything...
- 2000 and THIN