Black magic has passed. I'm happy to say that I'm happy again and I'm no longer in a cloud of insecurity and depression and confusion. It came with a price though...
*Yup... I'm starting to feel a bulge alright. I had to load up I guess to speed up the de-black magic-zation of my life. Food is a comfort zone and I'm an emotional eater. So I was able to eat my sorrows away and catharsis it right out with the help of reliable friends.
Can you guess where I was today?
WHAT I ATE:
- 1 cup of red rice
- Fish fillet with taosin sauce
(this was really good. too bad the rice portion was really small)
- Breast part of char-roasted chicken from S&R...
- Bottled Water
(I was supposed to just stay in the office and do work stuff. Thank God Derrick passed for me and I just couldn't pass on the opportunity to have lunch with my work family. They take my mind off things, and being with them just really brings a smile to my face).
- Chicken Noodle Soup w/ Egg
(a favorite of mine since childhood. I used to eat this with rice pa... talk about carbo load)
- Nachos from Filling Station (shared though I had the most I think)
- Sips of Tijte Beer from Distillery
- Bottled Water
(This is what got me. I actually exercised today and ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I weighed at 205 pounds after that from 206... but gained it all back, and then some with the nachos. It's ayt... I have to celebrate my happiness. This will be my cheat day already... now to get back to work before Mom's Birthday... I promised her I'd go down to 200 by her birthday - which is on Monday already.
So that I will do because... well, it's one of those gifts I can give to mom that she will actually appreciate. It's hard to give someone like her a gift 'coz you can never tell what she likes. She seems to have everything.)
30 Minutes Jogging in the Treadmill
Now I think the reason why I've been gaining is that I've been having dips in my self-control and in my diet. Midnight Snacks are bad. Yesterday nachos, today nachos again. No more midnight snacking for me until after Mom's Birthday >> Must drop down to 200 and I have five days to do it.
I will wake up early tomorrow so I can do Bikram Yoga and lose the water weight.
- 2000 and Thin (and Happy)